Been a rather tiring week. Prepared for the gunner's first 75mm range. Felt like a failure cos i kept screwing things up.
Screwed the lowloading and got scolded by an older spec which kinda went ard and bitched about me for the whole day.
After that the turret kinda leaked A4 and i told my men to clear it up and leave some newspapers to absorb the oil. Before i know it, another PS gathered all the commanders and showed them the 'mess'. Great. And i didn't even had the chance to explain myself, neither was i the only commander that's in charge of the tank. Talk about taking initiative.
Then there was this thing about night preparation and the battalion SOP. Passed down the instructions to the commmanders and even showed them how to do it. Too bad they didn't follow and I also didn't check, and when PS came, i got hell from him.
I was thinking, since they're fellow commanders, it isn't too nice to check on them. I guess I was wrong.
Now that i'm noticed for the mistakes i've done, it seems that certain individuals are blaming me for misdeeds that i'm not responsible for. So in the end, I was swallowing my pride and cleared them up.
Maybe one day, they'll see it. Maybe one day, i'll be more focused my first COS duty is coming up this tuesday. Wish me luck.